What do YOU think?

Ahhhh, OK, I haven't been able to write freely and expressly ever since I made this blog, and here is the reason: I am influenced by my audience. It's true and I admit it. A lot people, especially today, say that you shouldn't care what other people think, you shouldn't let them influence what your actions or beliefs, but I can't help at least thinking about it if not letting this influence me. I'm not swayed, this would be negative, meaning that my actual beliefs aren't usually affected. But, oh, how I am influenced. Before I had this blog, I thought about all the awesome things that I had to write down, that would make funny stories to read later or for my friends to read. However, I think and think and mash around in my brain what the effects of some things that I want to say will have on the people reading this. This is not a new development, I guess that I've always been this way. Thinking about peoples reactions, my own reactions, processing, processing, to the point of exhaustion. Mostly at night, I used to be awake for hours after I went to bed, not be able to sleep, just being wide awake. Now, I know better and I have to tell myself to stop thinking or I would never get any sleep. However, the point of all this venting is to apologize for the weak and puny blog that I have presented thus far and provide encouragement--I am going to try to do better! Of course, I don't really care what you are thinking ALL the time, so beware.

To tie in to this rather serious post, I will provide you with a little humor. Go to this link and take this quiz to find out what kind of personality disorders you're likely to have: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv

I was: -Moderately Paranoid, bizarre, why would they say that?
-Moderately Narcissistic, I have plenty of empathy
-Moderately Histrionic, I BEG TO DIFFER
-High Obsessive Compulsive, wha--wait, yah ok
(This only means that you are likely to have them, it doesn't diagnose)
So, what kind of wackoes are you? My roommate is avoidant, hmmmm. Haha, I love her!

Coziness

Previously, Amara, my roommate, and I haven't had any heat. I've been waking up in the morning with my heart feeling jittering because of the intense. I would immediatly throw on a sweatshirt and my slippers and grab the puffy comforter of my bed and wrap myself in it and lay huddled on our love seat reading my Bible. But today was the day for action, I called Maintenance and, with great efficiency, that sent someone over and he bravely tacled the problem, our radiator is behind Amara's bed and was surrounded by stuff. But in ten minutes we could feel the radiator begin to grow warm. So, now, when I enter my room, I am greeted by the scent and cozy feel of heated water, it feels comfortable and snuggly. The Christmas lights in my window add snugness to the room too, and I am sure that later tonight my friends will come over for a chat and then the hominess will be complete. This was all just in time too, there are light flurries falling outside.